Tuesday, November 29, 2011

"All That Is Gold Does Not Glitter"

All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.
From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king.

-J.R.R Tolkien

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Bobby Caldwell - What You Won't Do For Love

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Eid-al-Adha - Meat or Sacrifice?

Food for thought. Unfortunately, the more humans that live on Earth, the more extinctions of predatory and other species will result from our activities, which means all-the-more "management" (i.e- slaughtering of other animals by humans) to balance and regulate the ecosystem. Besides, as the author points out, meat-consumption in a majority of the Muslim and developing world is well below that of the U.S, and therefore wouldn't necessarily qualify as extreme consumption like we have here in the States. Still, I find her proposition interesting and agree with what is said regarding the incompatibility of Islamic values with intensive animal-farming methods. Now pass me that corn-on-the-cob will ya?

http://farahakbar.blogspot.com/2011/08/eid-sacrifice-full-article.html

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Child Labor

The more our lives feel like fantasy the more someone else's life becomes a nightmare supporting our dream life. We should remember that there is always a cost to luxury, even if we're not the ones paying for it, someone else is. Multinational corporations sell us heavenly comforts at the expense of hellish labor for its workers. Behind all the wonderful products we take for granted there are legions of nameless laborers who slave over it; their entire family and in some cases the entire community itself is engrossed in making that one product. Luxury and comfort aren't free. I wish there was an easy solution to tackle this problem. I wish the poor and helpless children had some other means to make a living, but I wonder if others who established these structures and systems of abuse, who profit off of them everyday, share in the guilt that I have. Whether we are aware of where our purchases go, what exactly our money supports, doesn't change the fact that we as a society remain complacent in the face of inhumane exploitation. And so, with deep embarrassment I show my humble gratitude to all the children of the world who made the products I enjoy using. Appreciation and apology don't go well together- neither do child and labor. At the very least, in your honor, we need to increase our knowledge and awareness of these corrupt practices and remove our support of them wherever possible. To the children, may your dreams be richer than our own and may we all help to support those dreams one day, ameen.


http://www.childinfo.org/labour.html
http://www.freethechildren.com/
http://goodweave.org/index.php?pid=9300

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Kishore Kumar - Ghungru Ki Tarha Bajta Hi Raha

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Truth in Numbers and Shapes

Written on the 17th of February, 2011


It can be argued that the numbers 0, 1 & 2 are the three most important and fundamental numbers to understand life. If we understand these quantities for what they are in relation to the natural world, we see that these three are sufficient in explaining our physical (and perhaps even metaphysical) world. Why? Let’s examine what these numbers mean: 0 is the first integer or whole number, it signifies the quantity of nothing. The number 0 is not divisible, it has no parts, it is the very essence of the concept of whole. In some ways, it is the most “powerful” number if we can call it that, because its properties are not affected by other numbers yet it can negate any number. Zero cannot be multiplied either because it is singular reality. When added or subtracted with other numbers, it blends in perfectly with the number, almost as if it wasn’t there and yet it can swallow whole any number that tries to multiply or divide it, this is its “strength.” It is also a “negative reality” for we can only verify its existence through the absence of a minimum (1). In other words, if a thing (1) is not there, then we can say there is nothing or (0). Zero in-of-itself is technically the most whole and largest number if we consider that it has no spacial dimension and no definition were we to graph the quantity visually; it can be as small or large as infinity. In other words, it cannot be confined to a point, it exists beyond the three dimensions of reality; or rather, it is an element of reality that helps define other variables.  This can also be said of the number 1, however, 0 cannot be a graphed spacial quantity the way that number 1 can be represented as a single point on a graph with X, Y, & Z three-dimensional coordinates.


The number 1 is the property of existents, where every existent being can be represented by it and it is also the locus of relationship which begins with the duplication of 1 (that is the number 2.) The number 1 has the property of verification that all existents have (i.e- is it real or not?) If we see a thing, we know it is there and can verify that in some basic physical form it exists. This is the reality of 1. This is also referred to as ‘positive reality.’ 1 is also the primary number of any form of duplicity/multiplicity. If there are four entities, there are four singular loci of relationships; four points on a graph, 1 + 1 + 1 +1. This makes the number 1 the focal point of experience and relationship in all existent beings, for it is by our locus that we engage with another locus, point, or thing. It is the medium through which all interactions take place.


The number 2 is the beginning of all spacial relationships between two existent entities. It signifies duplicity and this we see occurring everywhere in the natural world. If there are two loci of experience it is true that there can always be some form of relationship between the two, just as on a graph there can always be a line connecting the two points. Once the initial connection is there it exists on some plane forever, even if the two points themselves no longer exist physically, it can always be stated that “at such-and-such point in time, this kind of relationship existed between these two.” It is important to note that the term ‘spacial relationship’ is not limited to the physical three-dimensional world and it extends onto the spiritual plane where the points or physical loci of manifestation may have moved or no longer exist but the connection between them is still existent. Once something is connected in some way it can never be unconnected. If I know Sally it means I’ve connected with her entity on some level, even if we move far apart or have never met physically, my locus of experience (i.e- my ‘self’) has interacted with her existence and a connection becomes established. Were I to die, it can always be stated “Shawn knew Sally.” And just as any number of shapes can be made to connect these two entities, there are a virtually infinite array of possible relationships (1) can have with another (1).  So we see that these three numbers explain the three-dimensional plane we experience in the natural world. The number 0 explains the concept of infinity or limitless-ness, it signifies non-existence and the unverifiable existents as none-things that still have a reality ( it’s something) that’s why we call the number 0 an integer because it designates a quantity (even if we don’t know what that quantity is.) In short, 0 signifies the world of ‘negative reality.’ The number 1 signifies existent reality or ‘positive reality,’ existents that can be verified by the five senses. It also introduces the concept of multiplicity and the smallest form of that is in the dyad (1) + (1). This is precisely the significance of the number 2, in that it introduces duplicity and the beginning of all relationships. None-existence (negative) existence (positive,) and duplicity; 0,1,& 2 account for the three-dimensions.


If we look at life, we see that the most basic observations to be made in life are the verifications of reality or truths, “does it exist/does it not exist?” Whenever we encounter anything in the physical world the instantaneous report we receive from our brain and senses is – “it exists.” When we know something exists, we know we can interact with it in some way; we can approach it, engage it with our senses or simply ponder some aspect of it. That is really the meaning of life – the relationships between truths. The statement, “I am here” and “you are here” doesn’t mean much but the relationship between the two existents “I” and “you” is where all the meaning lies. This is where a discussion of shapes becomes useful. If we say that life is the verification of truths, we can also say these truths are loci or points on a graph that exist in time and space. If we say that the graph is the natural world, then the graph quickly begins filling up of points on varying dimensions ad infinitum. But what’s missing is the connections between these truths. This is where we “connect the dots” and give meaning to the relationships between entities; for example, what is their distance? We said earlier that any relationship starts between two points and this is true of all shapes as well. We can make any shape by joining two line segments and complex ones at that. If I am engaged in conversation between two others, we become three. Graphically, we can be shaped as a triangle on the same plane or our three points can exist on three different planes. But whatever the case may be, each point is connected to the other two by a line segment; in other words, it is an engagement of two or duplicity. This is why any form of multiplicity is essentially dealing with 2 at a time. Whether we speak of tens, hundreds, or thousands of people, graphically these are all points with line segments joining them in whatever fashion. The total (n) quantity of points itself is insignificant, what is significant is that any interaction is always duplicity at work because that is the basic structure of any relationship – a line segment, and how the two points connect.


If we then were to look at our own lives we’d see that our life would graphically look like a center point with line segments extending in all directions to various other points on the grid. Each one of us has formed so many relationships in our lives that it would almost look like a beam of light radiating from a single point in space and stretching in all directions (picture the glare from the sun as a visual.) Since each self is a locus of experience, each one of those existent points itself would have these ‘rays of light’ extending outward to other points, one of which would be connecting to you. Such a brilliant array of relationships would look nothing short of celestial constellations shining in all directions. Such is the story of life that starts from nonexistence (0) and moves unto existence (1) and continues from duplicity (2) and its many degrees of relationships, 3, 4, 5… and so on so forth.


Finally we can discuss the metaphysical world that begins with 0. The number 0 is really like a gateway between the positive and negative realities. Once the body is dead, does that entity continue to exist? Yes, but not in the same way. We speak of historical figures in this way and some existents have passed away thousands of years ago but are still remembered today, they exist for us in some manner and exert influence upon us whether it be their teaching or influence that shapes our perceptions and experience of our life. In other words, they have meaning to us and therefore, relevance. So if we look at a life, let’s refer to it by quantity (1), can we say that once it is no longer physically existent, it becomes (0)? Yes and no. In a mathematical sense of subtraction, yes it becomes zero but the existent does not become “no-thing,” rather they become a none-thing or a negative entity; something which can no longer be physically verified as a truth or axis, point, or locus of experience. Does this mean that they stop experiencing simply because we can no longer perceive its ability to experience? Not necessarily. Remember, the number 0 is neither small nor large, as paradoxical as it may seem it is both at the same time because we cannot perceive what it really is; so too, are the dead that pass away, for their quality is ambiguous but it can be stated that they are now, after having passed on to the other side, (-1).


Why -1? Because they still exist as an entity on some plane, even if not physically present, their meaning exists and therefore the connection or relationship to us exists – they are some-thing, and a thing we know is a quantity of 1. It is negative because we cannot see it, we cannot count 1,2,3 spirits for example, because we cannot measure negative quantities with our senses. But we know that when they were living they were (1) existent and it is likely they are now (1) existent as well, only negative for having gone beyond the zero. Thought is an example of a negative existence because its something that doesn’t have a positive form, but can we put a quantity on it? In some ways, yes, because we say things like “I had a thought” which is singular or “I was thinking” which we know is a collection of singular thoughts. So if thoughts work like negative numbers, aren’t memories of the same cloth? A memory, afterall, is a thought about a relationship between two entities; so duplicity still exists between the two, only in different states. The deceased is remembered and memories are passed on to future generations and the non-existent remains as (-1). Here we can also say that (-1) +(-1) is the duplicity or relationship between two non-existents (-2) just as two positive entities bonding are (2). We can see that, although non-existent in the positive sense, there is still a quantity to these entities even beyond the physical world and that the elements in this world still apply to the next world. It is how we can say we (1) live in a world of relationships formed through duplicity (2) and when we are subtracted from the world, we pass through (0) and continue relationships on the other side as (-1) & (-2).

One shape that symbolizes the world and its dynamics that hasn't yet been addressed is the circle. If we look at our physical world (the planet) we see it is an ellipsoid, or oblate spheroid technically-speaking, but nonetheless a type of circle or sphere. The characteristic of a sphere is a center point in space that is surrounded on all sides by more or less equal distance from the center point. Without getting so much into geometry, we can see that there is a start and end overlap that can be traced as we travel the distance around the sphere; in other words, there is a revolving nature to it. We find in life there is duality and complimentarity to many things: the sun and the moon, light and dark, male and female, good and evil, Summer and Winter, Spring and Autumn, life and death, movement and quietude, etc. The eastern traditions speak of the Tao as harmony of the cosmic principles of Yin & Yang and Hinduism speaks of the principle of Karma and both Hinduism and Buddhism speak of life as the Samsara (cycle) of birth and death. These traditions note the actions of nature and man are governed by this spherical law; that what goes up must come down, what is left goes right- what is will become its opposite. When we travel around the sphere there is a polar opposite point that supports our position, so when we are good it is because we are not bad, when we are alive its because we're not dead, and when there is light it is because there is no darkness, etc. There is also revolution in life and is evident: the seasons shift in turn, the strong become the weak and the weak become strong, parents raise children then are cared for by their offspring in old age, etc. The complimentarity of nature necessitates the opposites to co-exist and creates duality in the world. Duality and complimentarity suggest that there are polar opposites and polar opposites suggest a sphere and a sphere suggests revolution. This explains why there is a cyclical pattern to life when examining mental and physical worlds.

Life and the afterlife can then be summarized on the number scale of a range of (-2) to (2) where positive and negative relationships continue with the axis of experience (our selves or souls) between the gate of  (0) which acts as the mediator of life and death. And all the relationships we form are as numerous as the shapes we can form between various points on a grid. These relationships give us the meaning to our existence and life while life itself is simply the verification of truths which is fashioned by complimentarity and revolution; opposite forces and repetition.



Ethics of Attention

Written on the 3rd of October, 2010

Treating every human being you meet as if they are the only one worthy of your focused & concentrated attention– is this the right way to treat others? If so or if not, why? Certainly it fits the prophetic model. Personally, I find it an unattainable goal and too impractical, but still a worthy ideal to keep in mind and aspire toward. When I do have the time for someone, it is my aim and hope to implement this belief to whatever realistic degree possible though my family/friends can rightfully attest to my ‘unsatisfactory’ grade in this respect. It is more often that I don’t have the right time for people to allow this type of quality treatment, and I would imagine is so for nearly everyone who lives in the real world; affected by annoyances, pains, hunger, weariness, and the long list of things that would go under ‘etc.’ I guess the point I’m trying to crystallize is the degree of attention found in a clinical relationship between clinician and clients in a therapeutic environment and whether that type of attention is possible to give to nearly everyone we meet outside of that environment, and on a consistent basis. If it is possible, I’d imagine it requiring an exorbitant amount of energy the likes of which even a solar-nuclear-powered person would have trouble dishing out. But I guess the point is that we should try our best whenever possible to be attentive to the utmost, with the person directly being engaged. The hurdles of self-doubt and other-doubt make this extremely difficult; when others will question your ‘ulterior motive’ and in turn make you question yourself. Of course treating people as a means instead of an end unto itself is unethical and doesn’t fit the conversation here, but the goal is to give people your time and resources without expecting a return, though the world will cast you otherwise. Only those who are fortunate can continue this. But who knows, maybe one day we will require that degree of attention from someone else, and they will more readily give it to us if we have been giving it to them all along. God help us!

The Path To Perfection

Written on the 2nd of June, 2010

The path to the perfect state of existence lies on the other side. Mentally, a thought can reach it, but our ideals cannot fit between the tight crevices of intangibility and improbability; between hardships and circumstance, between stereotypes and prejudices, between enemies and injustice, between dishonesty and cheating, between war and oppression, between theft and hunger, between hurt and wrongdoing, between pain and sorrow, and the countless crevices that stand between our perfection and reality as it is. So that’s why the world has to be left behind at the entrance to the path toward perfection. And if your world must accompany you on this journey, only with contentment then can one pass through.

Legends

By Ruhudeen Ali
(2006-'07)


Legends are born riders on the storm;

from society torn, scorned and left alone

by rejecting the norms

their minds' shapeless of forms

only to return with corrective reforms

ascending the throne while yesterday unknown.

The Arrogance of Killing

Written on the 29th of May, 2010


I was reflecting today on the reasons why people feel they have a right to take another life. Seeing all the death and murder on the news in our times, and really since the earliest times, has lead me to question and analyze the motives and dynamics behind such a cruel and irreversible act. I realize it’s not common to ask or write about such a controversial topic but I think we should, as a society, investigate the question: “why do people kill?” not just for the obvious value of the prevention of senseless death and the preservation of life, but also for justice to the dead victims of this crime against life. We talk hours on end about trivial things that don’t matter all that much yet we don’t seriously ask and challenge the questions and notions that really affect and impact our society. So I’m asking the question, why do murderers think its OK to take another life?


In my usual manner, I first look at the spiritual forces at work whenever I take to analyze any question. In my opinion, a person has to have a set of traits and qualities that precondition him/her to accept what they perceive to be their justification for their crime. They are likely: (1.) Disenfranchised, (2.) Angry/Bitter/Resentful, (3.) Feel they’ve been wronged, (4.) Full of egotistical pride, (5.) Anti-social (6.) Believe in restoring power through violence, (7.) Believe ends justify means. In a nutshell, they perceive a sense of cosmic betrayal; whether it be by a god or society or an identity group of which they are a member, they feel rejected somehow by the ‘other(s)’ category. The perceived rejection itself is based on several factors, whether or not the person was mal-adjusted (culturally, economically, etc.,) psychologically/emotionally unstable, or anti-social with the larger society which would make it actual rejection (or in the case where it’s perceived it would then lead to the angry, anti-social, and detached views.) It is this betrayal they perceive that forms their opinion of justice and their view of feeling wronged by the ‘other(s)’ and in order to correct this unjust chaotic system, some radical means (i.e- violence) are taken to justify a ‘noble’ end of restoring proper justice and order in their warped world-view. The final piece is the egotistical pride they develop as a defense mechanism to protect their fragile egos against the dread of mass-rejection by the larger society, perceived or real. The inflated ego also protects the fragile mind by justifying horrendous actions that take away from others and give to self. These elements combined comprise the seven characteristics (more or less) that influence a mal-adjusted, resentful, power-hungry person to become dangerous because they will seek to reclaim that loss of power and correct their sense of injustice. 


Examining this from another angle, we need only look at our treatment of other life forms which we regard as less important than our own. It’s a speciesist attitude that measures our lesser life comforts greater than the quality of life and existence of another sentient being. Take for example, the common view of household bugs and rodents as pests. It’s fine to be upset by the unwelcomed presence of another life form in your dwellings, but unless there is a mutual threat of mortality to both parties, we are automatically then placing less urgent desires (than the desire to safeguard our life [as in the case of an armed burglar]) over the value of another creature’s existence, and find that as a justification to take its life – something that it can never get back nor ever be replaced. And this is quite common, a number of household products have been developed to make it all the more convenient, but let’s not fool ourselves, it is the taking of another life; it is an act of murder.


So when we kill a bug because we think it might bite us, are we justified? When we think it might tear holes in our clothes, are we justified then? When we think its just annoying to look at, or that it will reproduce, is this our justification for killing? What gives one finite, sentient being the right to take away the one life of another finite, sentient being? If we look at it objectively, we see that 9 times out of 10, there is no serious jeopardy to our life by the presence of these unwelcomed critters, and that since its no longer a question of “my life or your life,” it then becomes an issue of “your life or my comfort;” quite egotistical, no? Now let’s say it’s not just two or three bugs but an entire swarm that has taken over your room. Now you have no access to your bedroom, soon they take over your house. Now you’re an outcast, what do you do? (A.) Accept it and move away? (B.) Fight back? Or (C.) Murder your way back into your room? Most people would have already called the fumigators before reaching the point of becoming refugees, so it looks like the answer, for most people, is (C.) Huh, look at all you senseless murderers!


Now let’s suppose those bugs did take over your house, you’re now rejected, powerless, and feel wronged. You’re angry and egotistical, you just KNOW that its YOUR home and YOUR right to have it back, no matter the means to obtain it. You just KNOW that they’re stupid bugs and don’t mean anything to anyone or have any real value compared to your own life. You want your place back and you have the power to overcome these insect-invaders and you will use violence to achieve that end. So you decide to kill them all and regain your house and room. Congratulations, you are a murderer. Just with this analogy alone we’ve demonstrated most of those seven attributes that compel people to murder insects, so the question is, can it apply to humans too? It sure does.


In many cases of murder, there is no mutual threat of mortality where both parties equally face death if they don’t remove the cause first. In that case, there is one clear victim and one clear perpetrator and the perpetrator has judged his/her own life quality to be greater than the life in totality of the other sentient being. There can be any number of excuses (or what they would call justification) to rationalize their murderous act. But the truth of it is, their own life was not in danger, they only killed the other life-form because it either didn’t suite their interests to have them live, or their existence caused them some pain or discomfort or other type of unpleasant experience, or their death would result in some self-serving benefit, and so they judged these lesser things to be greater than the value of life itself. Once the life is taken, it can never come back, nor will a new life replace a lost life for in truth, that unique body, and that unique collected experience – that unique soul – is forever departed.


It needs to be asked then, what has lead people to believe other life-forms to be dispensable? For starters, I think it stems from a reckless and irresponsible view of life itself. Most people do not put much thought into the act of bringing a new life into this world, not nearly as much as they would have to think about taking one out of it. In other words, just as a murderer doesn’t consciously think about the many consequences of his murderous crime, most people do not consciously think about the consequences of bringing a life into existence. Most people place other personal reasons for having a child above the very child’s life itself. Whether it has to do with them wanting to have a child or wanting some help or company or needing someone to care for them in old age, life is not celebrated for its own reasons but to serve the quality of another life – isn’t this reckless attitude the same as a murderer’s? There are also those who have babies to compete, exploit, or seek some other gain in society. The use [and abuse] of life for the improvement of the quality of another existant, this is a masked version of the same “your life or my comfort” scenario discussed earlier isn’t it? Then you have those who have already decided what their children must be before they are born. “I will have a son who will be a doctor, a daughter who will be a singer.” The formula is: “I will create you IF you please me and do what I say” It’s the same thought of a murderer: “I will kill you IF you don’t please me and don’t do what I say.” And then there are those who are annoyed or angry with the creation of a fetus after having had their carnal pleasures and rather wish to destroy the baby fetus (i.e- abortion,) sometimes for the sole purpose of removing the evidence that they had sex, isn’t this like murdering a witness to a crime? These are just some illustrations conveying the idea that murder and accidental birth are connected by a reckless and dispensable view of life. If murder requires calculation and consideration to dissuade life’s taking, so too must the conception of life require calculation and consideration to persuade its creation.


If we intend to be serious about reducing murders in our societies we should also be serious about reducing unplanned offspring (not by aborting, unless there was rape involved) but by controlling our desires and placing the importance of life in its own category and not for the lesser pleasures of another human life. No life should be seen as an expense to improve the quality of another, but rather that the quality of that life itself spreads quality into one’s own. People should have children for the right reasons; to bring new life into society and contribute to the richness and diversity of society, just as people should not kill others for the fact that it takes away from the quality of life itself, and we all only have one life to live. In that oneness, we all share. It then becomes imperative for us to respect the autonomy of each life and resist the tendency on all levels to abuse the life of another for the pleasure and comfort of one’s own.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

'To Love, Be Lovable'


Written on the 18th of April, 2010
A while back I was having a conversation with a friend on confidence-building based on the appreciation for the beauty that is contained within each soul/spirit placed on this Earth. If you believe in a divine originator, you cannot then separate the link that exists between that divine source and every living thing. As humans we occupy a special place in creation and, compared to other creatures, exhibit a greater display of the wonderous workings of that divine source. It is that divine source’s craft, the mark of all of creation, which is stamped on our souls and should be a cause of happiness for us. Too often in life however, many of us will hold our heads down in shame, sadness or some other kind of self-reproachment when we lose sight of the good that has been placed in us. Granted, countless numbers of people who have lived on this planet have taken that initial goodness and obscured it, abandoned it, forgotten it or worse. The source of their good light obscured, they then allowed their souls to grow poisonous weeds instead of fruit-bearing plants. It becomes our moral obligation to protect and preserve this amazing work and its powerful abilities held deep within our spirit/soul, our heart, our mind, lest our potential is diverted from good and becomes a seat for evil and corruption.
However, before judging or ‘writing people off,’ it is important to remember the divine source of each person and that their manufacturing came from the best place, by the best manufacturer, and by the best sources and materials. It is this reminder that I believe is the reason to have pride and confidence in one’s creation. Ego-pride is something altogether different, and is not the type of pride I speak of nor advocate, but rather, having the knowledge, confidence, and assurance that your creation has met the highest of standards set by the creator of all things and that you are proof of that divine source’s most amazing craft-work out of all that exists around you.
This is an amazing perspective once you truly embrace it, because not only does it give you amazing confidence in who you are but it makes you grateful for what you’ve been given as far as your creation is concerned and [if truly understood] humbles your ego (your personalized soul) in that the ego – by default – falls short of the incredible potential that has been placed in it, for one simply cannot do justice to the divine qualities placed within their spirit, but the goal is to try one’s best to exhibit the best of what has been placed within themselves. In other words, the ego cannot fully actualize the seemingly limitless potential within one’s being. Only with the attitude that one can only try and work towards actualizing divine potential can one attempt to do one’s creation justice while keeping ego-pride in-check. When a famous designer makes a work of art, it is taken in the best of care to preserve and display that work with the best display and presentation, with an air of humility knowing others will critique that display based on the value of the product that is being displayed. Similarly, God has created this most amazing art which is the human spirit and it should be in our care to present it in the best manner possible, having humility in the fact that we are not displaying our divine art to its fullest. Below is a letter from Deepak Chopra on ‘love’ and mirrors this concept quite well.
-Ruhudeen Ali
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To Love, Be Lovable
To begin with, we can’t keep confining romance to an emotional state; we must redefine it as a surrender to the mystery of our own spirit- sat chit ananda- for beneath the turbulence of emotion that is what romance is. It is a state in which your primary relationship is not with your beloved but with your Self. Romance therefore begins when you can show your soul to another person.
The secret to being attractive, if one consults the past record of human experience, is remarkably simple. It is summarized in an aphorism from the Latin poet Ovid, who said, “To love, be lovable.” A lovable person is someone who is natural, easy with himself or herself, radiating the simple, unaffected humanity that makes anyone truly attractive.
Sometimes however, the simplest solutions are the most difficult to achieve. People find themselves caught up in the anxious search for love precisely because they don’t feel lovable. The very condition that would make for romance is absent. It is sad to say, but many of us have never felt lovable, even in childhood, when we had the fewest defenses against love and therefore could approach it with the most spontaneous innocence. A child who does not easily ask for affection and attention, who does not blossom when these are supplied, or who lives with her or his appeals unanswered, has been deprived of the very essence of childhood. Even for those of us who were loved adequately as children and therefore are in touch with our lovableness, bringing it forth is incredibly difficult in the current social climate.
Being lovable isn’t a superficial quality; it is a quality of spirit. Ananda cannot be destroyed, only covered over. In the end, if you can see yourself as spirit, it won’t matter what conditioning has occurred in the past, whether you were fortunate enough to be raised with loving values or so unfortunate that you were discouraged and made to feel ugly and worthless. Remember, in our inner most being, we are all completely lovable because spirit is love. Beyond what anyone can make you think or feel about yourself, your unconditioned spirit stands, shining with a love nothing can tarnish.
If being lovable really is the secret to attraction, then there is no need for anxious searching, because your own being, which can never be lost, doesn’t have to be found. The whole process of making yourself attractive to others, of constantly waiting for someone else’s response, of desperately comparing yourself with an ideal image can come to an end. The only requirement is a shift in perception, for those who cannot find love perceive themselves as not being lovable. This is not true, but they make it seem true by linking their perception to a powerful system of beliefs.
What creates romance is the ability to see yourself as lovable.
This shift in perception happens not by changing who you are but by seeing who you are and then shining it forth. If you were able to exhibit the full grandeur of your being, your whole life would be a romance, one long love story dedicated to ecstasy and joy. Rumi puts it elegantly when he declares,
By God, when you see your beauty
You’ll be the idol of yourself.
Nothing is more beautiful than naturalness. It alone contains the mystery and allure that spark romance. Trying to be cosmetically attractive is beside the point, for we are talking here about authenticity.
To be authentic, you have to be everything that you are, omitting nothing. Within everyone there is a light and shadow, good and evil, love and hate. The play of these opposites is what constantly moves life forward; the river of life expresses itself in all its changes from one opposite to another. If you can truly embrace these opposites within yourself, you will be authentic, and as your self-acceptance expands until there is nothing to be ashamed of, nothing to hide, your life will take on the generosity and warmth that marks every great lover.
Love,
Deepak

A Wholistic Work Ethic

Written on the 8th of February, 2010

Every type of labor and field has a physical, mental, and spiritual component to it. At times the bearings of these three dimensions will have varying effects upon an individual; the weight of which will affect one’s performance. Ultimately, the significance of the spiritual dimension outweighs the other two. If one is not prepared spiritually for their work in life, they will be crushed by even a single atom of burden from the other two. But if the spirit is willing, mental or physical pain and struggle will not impede one. Your entire being has a role to play in your work. The key to unlocking your whole being’s potential contribution is through sincerity. Your sincerity will be a measure of your efficiency and efficacy and sincerity can be improved through honesty. Earnestly assess your abilities and limits; honestly improve upon each of the three dimensions where there is room for improvement. So prepare physically, tune your mind, meditate and reflect over the importance of your spirit’s work in your affairs and prosper in the knowledge that you put your all into your efforts, and work happily, sleep peacefully.

The Goodly Tree

Written on the 7th of January, 2010

 A few days ago I had a dream in which I was being preached to by someone (I want to say it was me because I can recollect the words as being spoken through my own voice.) In my dream, I was being shown the extent of the effects each of my actions had generated, both the good and the bad ones. What was interesting however, was how I remember feeling shocked in my dream to see how incredible it was to witness how far-reaching a simple smile of mine might have gone to brighten not only one person’s day, but that of several people, as my smile’s recipient added my gesture to their own strength and passed on the torch of goodness unto those who needed it. Similarly, I was aghast to witness the ill effects of certain ill deeds I had committed and just how far its effects had spread, was truly frightening to me (at least in the innocence of my dream.) The last part of the dream had me shown the difference between acting righteously irreverent of the good returns and the concept of Karma itself. What I can remember from the dream was that Karma is simply a rule of nature; in that you reap what you sow and that many people use this as a check & balance to encourage good deeds in expectation of further good and fear retribution for ill deeds. The preacher, it seems, was trying to get me to see the difference between this way of thinking and that of being a good or bad “tree” [i.e- the parable of the tree spoken of in the Scriptures of the Qur'an and the Bible.] Living this way was intended to be for its own purpose, and not necessarily for the knowledge of earning future rewards from a good action or prohibiting bad actions for the fear of reprisal. Karma is simply the natural order of consequences under which all actions fall within, and this parable of being the good tree is no exception. So in fact, the voice was simply stating, that like Karma, actions have their consequences and that good actions bear good fruits for future good and bad actions stunt growth and cut off future good. When I had awoke, I felt like I had a new mission in life, (or at least a worthy resolution for the New Year.) I felt that I should live in such a way that, no matter the consequences, I become that “goodly tree;” to live to the best of my abilities and virtues with all whom I interact with, with no regrets for a good deed or well-intentioned action. This, of course, with an air of caution since not all well-intentioned actions are wise actions. That said, I felt this great feeling upon waking up and a renewed spirit to willingly put myself and my interests on jeopardy’s path if it meant ultimate good for more than just myself as each good deed we do for others will not only benefit its recipient but ultimately benefit us as well in some way. This was a feeling I had not felt in years, a feeling I had missed for some time and only felt in the height of my religiosity during my undergraduate college years. Call it a selfless love for my fellow man and woman, my brothers and sisters in humanity. It’s a deep treasure that needs protection from a world of theft and corruption of ideals so pristine they can only live deep within a pure heart. And I am no one to claim such a heart, but at the same time, we must all recognize the divine and pure Source that our hearts come from and that is God. I like to believe there is somewhere in our hearts – in each of us – a special place that cannot be corrupted because it was programmed to be resistant to evil, no matter how close it reaches this sacred spot, sort of like the ultimate hacker-proof file on a computer system, designed by the best of programmers – God Himself. This spot is like our Mecca and holy city where all ill is barred and prohibited from entering and corrupting the very source and essential core of what makes us human. It is this spot to which my dream addresses in each of us. To plant this seed of the goodly tree on the fertile soil of the pure and sacred spot within our hearts. If we start to see ourselves as an unstoppable mechanism for good in this world then we may just be able to overcome many of the obstacles to peace that we once thought insurmountable and unscalable. We should, from time to time, reflect on a simple bad deed we have done and see just how that behavior affected so many others on multiple levels. If that be the case of a simple bad action then what of a great one, and the greatest of our blunders? Similarly, we can restore hope by reflecting on the simple good acts and the greatest of good acts we’ve done and how much they really mean and weigh in the eyes of reality itself. We measure the value of something by the weight of its consequence but when the measurement is off due to the imperceptibility of each atom of weight, we are thrown off. Reality will be the judge of our actions, atom by atom, and give us our due by the true weight of what we have done on this Earth. This is only a reminder to myself and all of you who read this that we can avoid becoming the barren seed and tree which bears no fruit or use. We are each given life so that our life can give rise to more life, not that we restrict it, oppress it, or sentence it to death. We can each try at least to live like the goodly tree, whose roots are strong, skin is tough, branches are always ready to catch a blessing and provide food and rest for those under our care and when we pass from this world, our wood will give use to more positive ends. This is the meaning of the dream and I hope you and I can achieve it in our lifetimes, ameen.

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Fix

"Fix"
By Ruhudeen Ali
November 4th, 2011


These thoughts are so rusted
These eyes are so tired
This body needs repair
Has the hope gone expired?

The excitement is so short
The pain is predictable
Regret retorts
The cycle is inevitable.

This feeling is so abused
The suffering seems endless
I am so confused
I do not pretend this.

The cure is so distant
The answers are lost
Yet the questions are persistent
Living on, but at what cost?

This scene is oft-played
The soul needs a prayer
This body has quickly-aged
Still it tarries toward despair.

This place was once scary
But now its home to this purpose gone rotten
To this weary body the pain is so normal
That the cure is now forgotten.


Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Halal Toxication

Written on the18th of April, 2009

So I’ve been poisoned apparently, though it was years ago. And ‘why’ do you say? For being an observant Muslim it seems. Ok, well that’s not entirely true. But I’ll tell the story anyway….

Since 2000 as a Freshman in college, I had observed to the best of my ability the Islamic ruling on eating only halal (zabihah) food while at school. It was not something I had done my entire life as I was raised somewhat ‘secular’ but stayed away from culturally significant haram practices less so religiously prohibited ones. It was a struggle at first, like all uphill battles, but luckily my soul wasn’t so far into hell that I couldn’t get myself to do this. But what I do recall is how my Arab brethren were braggingly advertising the permissibility of eating ‘ahl al kitab’ or the meat of ‘the People of the Book’ (which is actually halal.)

No, this does not mean that they were eating the meat off the Jews and Christians. It meant eating the same meat that they were allowed (via Mosaic Law) to eat as well (i.e- Kosher.) Only their definition of what was included in ‘ahl al kitab’ varied from what my personal views on the matter were; namely the inclusion of any and all permissible animals slaughtered and served in this country. The logic was that this country (America) is a Christian country and that the meat of this country falls under the banner of ‘ahl al kitab.’ It didn’t take me long to completely dismiss their argument, but what I did envy was their apparent nonchalance and ease when choosing items of food to eat. Meanwhile, I was the guy who had to eat either:


  1. Pizza 
  2. Pasta 
  3. The occasional halal meal (fridays) 
  4. Sushi 
  5. Fish burgers 
  6. Or my absolute ‘favorite’ default meal – Tuna sandwiches 


That's a lot of fish huh? Which brings me to the the story of how I was presumably poisoned. In my freshman year, I ate a tuna sandwich everyday. Everyday; at least once, sometimes twice. Now let me give you a picture of how much tuna is packed into a college sandwhich. Normally a regular size can of tuna contains 5 oz. (142g) of meat which is about 2 serving sizes. However, these sandwhichs had easily 7 – 7.5 oz. of meat per sandwhich. That meant that I was getting anywhere from 7 oz. – 15 oz. of tuna, daily. This does not even include the days where I would make my own sandwhichs (tuna of course) at home after coming back from classes. As a general rule though, I would not eat more than 2 tuna sandwhichs a day (this was even before I learned about mercury poisoning.) The following years (2001-2004) I cut down on my tuna intake and averaged about 4-5 sandwhichs per week and would eat either pizza, pasta, sushi, or burgers (fish burgers mind you) for the other meals. There was hardly a day I can remember (and thanks to the mercury poisoning I can barely remember anything!) where I wasn’t eating some kind of fish – it was the safest choice for a Muslim kid trying to be observant and staying away from non-zabiha meat (or so I thought at the time.)

As early as 2003, I can still remember that I was experiencing strange physiological differences in my head which I had never felt before. At the time, I didn’t think much of it. I figured I was simply depressed and had a lack of focus in my career path, etc. I lived in a basement of a house at the time so I just blamed it on the lack of sunlight, sadly, it would be my fate to live in basements for the remainder of my college years so the ‘basement = no sunlight’ hypothesis was a convenient explanation for the strange feelings I was having. I would sometimes feel electric currents running in parts of my head, parts of my head would suddenly feel cold and at other times, numb. Strange pains and sensations would occur but it wasn’t really until I had started losing my short-term (working) memory that I started taking real notice of it.

By that time it was 2004 and I remember sharing this story with a friend about the strange sensations in my head, she told me that I should just go to the clinic if I was really concerned but that it was probably just stress from school. So I didn’t think much of it and continued to brush it off. I had taken the 2005 school year off due to family reasons and upon returning home, I had regressed back to old habits and thoughts and felt my depression coming back. It started dawning on me that perhaps the depression was the cause of my lack of concentration, focus, and memory (as is common in depression.) So I had begun taking nutritional supplements (gingko biloba) and others (Focus Factor) to help boost my slipping memory, which was really beginning to alarm me by this point. Upon returning to school in 2006, I remember I was afraid that I could no longer comprehend the difficult material I was accustomed to in some of my hardest classes (due to the concentration/focus/memory retention factors) and read something I had written in my earlier years and barely even recognized it as my own work! Things were looking weird.

However, I successfully completed the semester with a 4.0 GPA and aced the 2 hardest classes of my college career thus far – it was a resounding victory for me in that I knew I had conquered the doubting demon that was trying to tell me that I was going ‘mad.’ Sadly, that demon had other plans for me the following years.

Since 2006, I have been living at home, taking care of my sick mother, doing errands/chores, and managing bills and other duties of all kinds (aside from the caretaking.) For 101 other reasons, I was justified in losing my mind. But this was different – I had started forgetting important memories, childhood hallmarks I had remembered for my whole life. I was getting scared and depressed. I didn’t know why I was losing so much of my memory. I felt I was being cursed for my sins and slowly began slipping even more because of all this.

It was during my years at home that I came to the knowledge of heavy-metal toxication (namely in the form of mercury poisoning,) what its symptoms are, how long it lasts, how to avoid it etc. I learned that the FDA recommends about 12 oz. of various fish per week (lower in mercury content of course.) Sadly, I was getting a minimum of 35 oz per week – nearly three times the FDA recommendation per week, for about six months a year, for the course of six years total. And to make matters worse, of all fish, it was tuna. Due to the relatively high concentration of mercury in[albacore] tuna, many physicians discourage pregnant women from eating tuna altogether to avoid birth defects in infants.

Tuna, shellfish, shark, and other large fish contain higher levels of methylmercury (the form of organic mercury converted in water) which accrue through a process known as ‘bioaccumulation.’ The way it works is that natural elemental mercury will find its way into water (and in the case of most of the tri-state area) large industries will dump mercury-waste straight into the waters as well. The little fish will naturally take in trace amounts of mercury whereby larger predatorial fish will eat the smaller ones, building up the mercury levels through accumulation. The cycle continues until the largest fish in the ecosystem eat the little guys and have built up quite a bit of mercury in their systems. These big fish then make their way into our stomachs and yup, you guessed it – if you eat enough of it, you get poisoned. The tri-state area is actually found to have the highest degree of mercury content in its surrounding waters than any other region in the entire nation, as can be seen in the picture at the bottom of the post.

It is so potent in fact, that the FDA allows 5000 times less amount of mercury than it does even lead! Some symptoms of mercury poisoning are (taken by the EPA:)


  • Impairment of the peripheral vision 
  • Disturbances in sensations (“pins and needles” feelings, numbness) usually in the hands feet and sometimes around the mouth 
  • Lack of coordination of movements, such as writing Impairment of speech, hearing, walking; 
  • Muscle weakness 
  • Skin rashes 
  • Mood swing 
  • Memory loss 
  • Mental disturbance 


And sadly, I had experienced nearly all of these symptoms during the course of the years. Unfortunately mercury poisoning takes years of detoxification and if in large enough amounts can cause irreversible changes in brain chemistry. This is in no way an exhaustive research article on the subject and I encourage you all to read up more on the devastating long-term effects of mercury poisoning (and other toxin exposure) as these toxins are, unfortunately more common than we may think.

So back to my story of being an observant little good Muslim. Nobody told me about the dangers of eating too much fish and now I am suffering heavily because of it. There is no telling when (or if) these symptoms will be abated and/or if they can be compounded by other organic symptoms and changes in brain chemistry through things like depression, hormonal changes, and neurotransmitter levels. Without knowledge of the subject, I was duped into poisoning myself, but I write this in the hopes that it will warn others not to rely overly on one or two sources of food. A well-balanced diet is always recommended no matter how busy you may be. This is particularly common among Muslims in the West who are faced with problems concerning halal food and the ‘quick fish’ alternative. This matter must be more thoroughly researched and presented in our communities so that we can be armed with knowledge and make healthier choices in food. Don’t even ask how bad my memory is now….

(I live in an area with concentrated levels of mercury in its waters)